Well, it has been quite awhile since I have posted any entries here on my blog. I have been quite busy, learning how to live for myself, how to separate myself from the crazy chaos that was my everyday life and working towards my goals.
I am feeling so refreshed, having just participated on one of our weekly YOU University group coaching calls! I love these calls, one cannot help but feel totally energized afterwards! I have been cut off so to speak from my support system through YOU U and all of the other methods we use to connect with one another. I switched providers for my internet, cable, & phone services, what a nightmare that was!!! I am so glad that it is over and I can now get back to work.
I will say, that my time away from the tech world has been quite an experience! It hasn't been all bad though, I had some quality "ME" time. I was able as a friend put it, to fall from the nest and fly on my own successfully!! I was able to be separated from my support system and connections with these valued friends and do just fine. I actually utilized the tools I learned and asserted myself on my own and did just fine - great in fact!!
My time to myself, was spent doing some much needed re-grouping. I did a lot of reflecting on where I am, where I am headed, and what I truly want for myself. I actually received total confirmation that I am indeed on the right path and I am starting to discover the real me. I am discovering the skills and abilities that I have which lay dormant all of these years.
It has been approximately one year, since I began my journey and I am such a dramatically different person now today than I was back then!! I am more myself, the person I have always been just lost along the way. I'm finding her everyday more and more, I'm loving her and it is/has been quite a journey thus far!!!! While it hasn't always been easy, I've had to face a lot of buried emotional baggage and resolve many unresolved issues; it has been life changing and I say that with every fiber of my being all bulls@*$ aside.
I have learned so much, grown by leaps & bounds, experienced healing on so many levels and shared my journey every step of the way, with such a wonderful support system of true friends and for that I am grateful!!!!
I still have work to do and life being the school that it is, our learning never stops. However, I am stronger now, I have so much more clarity than before and my determination has grown tremendously. It's like having a new set of eyes and seeing yourself and the world around you in a whole new light.
So there you have it, I am still here, I am still working to heal, grow, & change and it's working!!!! To say that I am grateful for Maia Berens coming into my life and for attending YOU University, well that would be an understatement!!!!
Friday, October 14, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
The weight of Compassion."
"The weight of Compassion."
The following is the definition of compassion at Wikipedia:
Compassion (from Latin: "co-suffering") is a virtue — one in which the emotional capacities of empathy and sympathy (for the suffering of others) are regarded as a part of love itself, and a cornerstone of greater social interconnection and humanism — foundational to the highest principles in philosophy, society, and personhood.
Compassion for others is something most of us have, some more than others. However, when does too much compassion become a serious problem? I like to think that my sense of compassion is perfectly balanced. I'd be lying if I said that were true because, such is not the case!
I come from a long line of dysfunction in the family setting. I have and am working hard to break the chain. However, within my journey I have discovered that I am suffering from the weight of my compassion for others!
What does this mean? It simply means that I have replaced my co-dependency issues with an unhealthy dose of way too much compassion! The weight of this compassion on me and my life is very, very heavy. Not only is it heavy but, it's harmful as well.
You see, I took my sense of compassion for others and assumed it to mean that others problems were also my problems! I worried and fret over others situations, seeking a solution for them.
I allowed it to affect me on an emotional and sometimes physical level. I completely threw out any type of personal boundaries what so ever! In doing so, other people's issues totally invaded my life. I was feeling their worry, their pain, and their sorrows, sometimes even more than the person themselves!
My compassion for others simply re-created itself into my former co-dependent relationships. I put myself on the back burner and concentrated on solely on how I would help them and/or how I could fix their problems.
Now some people appreciated my help and welcomed my ideas and other people came to expect my help and let me do all of the work for them! They were taking advantage of me, knowing that it wasn't my place to be handling their personal problems. Those people enjoyed total freedom to do other things and enjoy themselves while I took care of their problems for them!
The weight of compassion can be devastating and it was for me! I was depressed, always moody, sleeping as much as possible, avoiding my family and friends, not handling my business matters or taking care of my, I was always getting sick, and I was absolutely STUCK!! By stuck I mean, that I made no progress towards my journey of healing from my past.
I couldn't, maybe I should say wouldn't accept responsibility for what I was doing to myself and my life. I was in denial about the fact that I had created my reality and all the mess that I was experiencing at the time. It got to a point in which I just wanted to shut down! I had no desire to do anything, talk to anyone, or take care of myself.
I lost so much weight, I never got dressed anymore, barely even showered and didn't bother to do my hair or make-up at all. Then I would get mad if I had to go somewhere and do something, if I couldn't get someone else to do it for me! I didn't want to go out the way I looked and was to lazy to get ready then go.
Needless to say my compassion for others, the weight it brought down on me, was crushing the life right out of my body! Sounds a bit dramatic I know but, I can assure you that it absolutely felt that way to me. So much so that the way I was feeling inside showed up on the outside in my life, to every degree possible!
I was feeling hopeless that is, until someone helped me to see the err of my ways. I was an absolute train wreck at the time and for once I began to see light at the end of the tunnel!! This person whom I call my Wise Fairy Godmother, helped me to recognize the affects that my overly compassionate self had created. She showed me a way to bring my compassion into balance.
I felt an amazing shift within myself and it sparked my desire and my motivation to embark upon the journey I am currently on. What journey you ask? the Journey home to myself - the "Real Me"!! I am finally discovering how to achieve a healthy balance of compassion, how to set personal boundaries, how to heal from my past, discover my internal/learned beliefs and change the ones that are of no benefit to me. All the while, uncovering my authentic self, the "Me" that I have always been but, hid away deep inside to protect myself from my dysfunctional life.
Having lived such a dysfunctional life for so long, I had forgot who the real "Teri" was anymore or how to even find her!! That's where my journey through YOU University comes into play. I have since experienced a tremendous amount of learning, growth, and healing. I continue to experience all of this and so much more to this day.
This whole story of what the weight of compassion has personally cost me, was an assignment. My Wise Fairy Godmother, also known as Maia Berens assigned it to me and I suspect the reason being; to help me continue doing what I am doing in YOU U but, more importantly! to help me from forgetting what,"The Weight of Compassion" was on me!!
The following is the definition of compassion at Wikipedia:
Compassion (from Latin: "co-suffering") is a virtue — one in which the emotional capacities of empathy and sympathy (for the suffering of others) are regarded as a part of love itself, and a cornerstone of greater social interconnection and humanism — foundational to the highest principles in philosophy, society, and personhood.
Compassion for others is something most of us have, some more than others. However, when does too much compassion become a serious problem? I like to think that my sense of compassion is perfectly balanced. I'd be lying if I said that were true because, such is not the case!
I come from a long line of dysfunction in the family setting. I have and am working hard to break the chain. However, within my journey I have discovered that I am suffering from the weight of my compassion for others!
What does this mean? It simply means that I have replaced my co-dependency issues with an unhealthy dose of way too much compassion! The weight of this compassion on me and my life is very, very heavy. Not only is it heavy but, it's harmful as well.
You see, I took my sense of compassion for others and assumed it to mean that others problems were also my problems! I worried and fret over others situations, seeking a solution for them.
I allowed it to affect me on an emotional and sometimes physical level. I completely threw out any type of personal boundaries what so ever! In doing so, other people's issues totally invaded my life. I was feeling their worry, their pain, and their sorrows, sometimes even more than the person themselves!
My compassion for others simply re-created itself into my former co-dependent relationships. I put myself on the back burner and concentrated on solely on how I would help them and/or how I could fix their problems.
Now some people appreciated my help and welcomed my ideas and other people came to expect my help and let me do all of the work for them! They were taking advantage of me, knowing that it wasn't my place to be handling their personal problems. Those people enjoyed total freedom to do other things and enjoy themselves while I took care of their problems for them!
The weight of compassion can be devastating and it was for me! I was depressed, always moody, sleeping as much as possible, avoiding my family and friends, not handling my business matters or taking care of my, I was always getting sick, and I was absolutely STUCK!! By stuck I mean, that I made no progress towards my journey of healing from my past.
I couldn't, maybe I should say wouldn't accept responsibility for what I was doing to myself and my life. I was in denial about the fact that I had created my reality and all the mess that I was experiencing at the time. It got to a point in which I just wanted to shut down! I had no desire to do anything, talk to anyone, or take care of myself.
I lost so much weight, I never got dressed anymore, barely even showered and didn't bother to do my hair or make-up at all. Then I would get mad if I had to go somewhere and do something, if I couldn't get someone else to do it for me! I didn't want to go out the way I looked and was to lazy to get ready then go.
Needless to say my compassion for others, the weight it brought down on me, was crushing the life right out of my body! Sounds a bit dramatic I know but, I can assure you that it absolutely felt that way to me. So much so that the way I was feeling inside showed up on the outside in my life, to every degree possible!
I was feeling hopeless that is, until someone helped me to see the err of my ways. I was an absolute train wreck at the time and for once I began to see light at the end of the tunnel!! This person whom I call my Wise Fairy Godmother, helped me to recognize the affects that my overly compassionate self had created. She showed me a way to bring my compassion into balance.
I felt an amazing shift within myself and it sparked my desire and my motivation to embark upon the journey I am currently on. What journey you ask? the Journey home to myself - the "Real Me"!! I am finally discovering how to achieve a healthy balance of compassion, how to set personal boundaries, how to heal from my past, discover my internal/learned beliefs and change the ones that are of no benefit to me. All the while, uncovering my authentic self, the "Me" that I have always been but, hid away deep inside to protect myself from my dysfunctional life.
Having lived such a dysfunctional life for so long, I had forgot who the real "Teri" was anymore or how to even find her!! That's where my journey through YOU University comes into play. I have since experienced a tremendous amount of learning, growth, and healing. I continue to experience all of this and so much more to this day.
This whole story of what the weight of compassion has personally cost me, was an assignment. My Wise Fairy Godmother, also known as Maia Berens assigned it to me and I suspect the reason being; to help me continue doing what I am doing in YOU U but, more importantly! to help me from forgetting what,"The Weight of Compassion" was on me!!
Thursday, June 9, 2011
"ATTACK OF THE EGO"
I have been in a sort of a funk, for a bit of awhile lately.
I couldn't quite put my finger on why I was feeling this way, until now!
Yeah, I am going through some financial hardships and I am looking for a new home and dreading the thought of having to move. However, I have been in this boat before and as bothersome as these problems are - this situation is different?
I was catching up on the Google Waves last night, reading and posting a couple of comments on some of them. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks!!
My old inner tapes have been playing away and while consciously I am excited and pursuing my goals through YOU U, on a subconscious level, I am doing the exact opposite!!
My old fears, coping mechanisms and thoughts have been wreaking havoc within me! I have been extremely tired, more into TV than usual, & mopey.
I honestly did not recognize it until last night! I was feeling like I was becoming distant, not closer to the group and it upset me greatly! I knew that when I would have any negative thoughts about my journey, I would acknowledge them and them replace them with positive ones.
What I didn't know was that my actions, thoughts & feelings were all a result of my egos desperate attempt to reel me back in. I am up against a battle with my own ego, who for years has programmed me to not step out of my comfort zone, to believe that I am not good enough and will never be successful at anything.
It's frightening to think that my conscious is battling my subconscious! It's exciting for me to now realize that this is what's been going on within me!! With my new found knowledge of this, I can better prepare to fight off my ego's attempts to resist. I will be better equipped to catch on quicker when my ego creeps up.
I am 42yrs. old and I knew going in that this would be difficult at times considering, my years of negative programming. I just wasn't prepared for how clever my ego would be in it's attempts to stop me!
This has been huge for me and has refreshed my drive & enthusiasm for my journey drastically!!!!
I hereby, commit to:
I will end by saying that, I am truly grateful for this realization and for the increased strength, drive, & ambition that learning this has given me!! :)
I couldn't quite put my finger on why I was feeling this way, until now!
Yeah, I am going through some financial hardships and I am looking for a new home and dreading the thought of having to move. However, I have been in this boat before and as bothersome as these problems are - this situation is different?
I was catching up on the Google Waves last night, reading and posting a couple of comments on some of them. Then it hit me like a ton of bricks!!
My old inner tapes have been playing away and while consciously I am excited and pursuing my goals through YOU U, on a subconscious level, I am doing the exact opposite!!
My old fears, coping mechanisms and thoughts have been wreaking havoc within me! I have been extremely tired, more into TV than usual, & mopey.
I honestly did not recognize it until last night! I was feeling like I was becoming distant, not closer to the group and it upset me greatly! I knew that when I would have any negative thoughts about my journey, I would acknowledge them and them replace them with positive ones.
What I didn't know was that my actions, thoughts & feelings were all a result of my egos desperate attempt to reel me back in. I am up against a battle with my own ego, who for years has programmed me to not step out of my comfort zone, to believe that I am not good enough and will never be successful at anything.
It's frightening to think that my conscious is battling my subconscious! It's exciting for me to now realize that this is what's been going on within me!! With my new found knowledge of this, I can better prepare to fight off my ego's attempts to resist. I will be better equipped to catch on quicker when my ego creeps up.
I am 42yrs. old and I knew going in that this would be difficult at times considering, my years of negative programming. I just wasn't prepared for how clever my ego would be in it's attempts to stop me!
This has been huge for me and has refreshed my drive & enthusiasm for my journey drastically!!!!
I hereby, commit to:
- attend all calls,
- complete all assignments given to me by Maia,
- to give my best to my journey and the responsibilities that come with it,
- to utilize the tools we learned when needed,
- to utilize my friends in deed when I am struggling
- to overcome my old programming
- to love myself enough to be successful & know I deserve it
I will end by saying that, I am truly grateful for this realization and for the increased strength, drive, & ambition that learning this has given me!! :)
Friday, May 20, 2011
MY ARRIVAL IS TAKING PLACE, I AM FINALLY HERE!!
I am experiencing an awareness, a rather large awareness! I feel this new found self-confidence, this sense of "Knowing" and a feeling that I am arriving - if that makes sense?
I found yesterday, that in any conversations I had throughout the day; I felt very confident and secure with myself. It's really hard to explain exactly what the feeling is but, it's good I know that much!
I am still working through the buildings in YOU University and my two classmates have both graduated already. At first, I used to get upset with myself at how much further ahead they were than me. I felt like I was slacking and it made me angry with myself.
I later realized that, all of us are on our own individual journeys and I am working at the exact pace that I am meant to for my journey! It isn't a race and we all pretty much started at different times anyhow, needless to say I got over it quickly.
I am excited to be at a point in my journey where the transformation is apparent to all who know me. I've been asked what am I doing, told that I am glowing and even that I look much younger and happy! Loving it!! lol
It's been just six months since I started in YOU University. The program is designed to take approximately six months. Some people will take longer to complete it and some will take less time, either way that is okay.
I just really am proud of myself for sticking with it and not running when I started facing the emotional work! After all, this is the first time I have ever not quit a program of this nature. By that I mean, a program designed to better myself and deal with unresolved issues. I just wasn't totally ready and the other programs I attempted to try were closer to what I was looking for but, not enough so to keep my attention.
It's like, each time I found a new program; it was better than the previous one and more of what I wanted. So, when I finally found YOU University I knew immediately that this was it! This is the program for me, it has everything I was looking for and more!!
I am about halfway through the program and I will tell you; that with each completed building, my experiences continue to unfold and I love this program!!
I found yesterday, that in any conversations I had throughout the day; I felt very confident and secure with myself. It's really hard to explain exactly what the feeling is but, it's good I know that much!
I am still working through the buildings in YOU University and my two classmates have both graduated already. At first, I used to get upset with myself at how much further ahead they were than me. I felt like I was slacking and it made me angry with myself.
I later realized that, all of us are on our own individual journeys and I am working at the exact pace that I am meant to for my journey! It isn't a race and we all pretty much started at different times anyhow, needless to say I got over it quickly.
I am excited to be at a point in my journey where the transformation is apparent to all who know me. I've been asked what am I doing, told that I am glowing and even that I look much younger and happy! Loving it!! lol
It's been just six months since I started in YOU University. The program is designed to take approximately six months. Some people will take longer to complete it and some will take less time, either way that is okay.
I just really am proud of myself for sticking with it and not running when I started facing the emotional work! After all, this is the first time I have ever not quit a program of this nature. By that I mean, a program designed to better myself and deal with unresolved issues. I just wasn't totally ready and the other programs I attempted to try were closer to what I was looking for but, not enough so to keep my attention.
It's like, each time I found a new program; it was better than the previous one and more of what I wanted. So, when I finally found YOU University I knew immediately that this was it! This is the program for me, it has everything I was looking for and more!!
I am about halfway through the program and I will tell you; that with each completed building, my experiences continue to unfold and I love this program!!
Sunday, May 15, 2011
LOVE LETTERS
Before I learned about the "Love Letters" technique, I was notorious for writing letters when I was upset with someone in my family! Of course, I had no format to follow and most of the letters were given to the people. There were some letters, that I didn't give to the person.
I learned this letter writing trick from my parents, mainly my dad. You knew something was up when you got a letter from dad! My dad would give us the silent treatment when he was mad at us and then usually follow it up with a letter. His letters most times, left you feeling pretty crappy!
I can admit that even back then, I always felt better writing a letter and getting the issue off my chest. Even if I didn't give it to the person, I still felt better just writing it. I rationalized it like this, by writing a letter I could make sure to say everything that I wanted to. I would normally forget things if I just tried talking with the person and then left the conversation feeling more upset, that I didn't say all that I wanted too. I also felt that by writing the person a letter they could take the time to read it and process what I had said to them and then we could perhaps talk things over.
I definitely had the right idea, I was just lacking the correct format to use for positive results!! I really love the "Love Letter" technique!
I am thinking about perhaps, first using the "Love Letter" technique prior to talking with the person I am upset with. If I do that first, I feel that I will have gotten a start on feeling better and will be in a better position to discuss the problem without getting real upset and/or heated. I don't mean that I will give the letter to them but, just write it and get it out & off my chest first before approaching them.
I am definitely to the point in my journey, that I am ready to take the necessary steps needed for myself. I am no longer trying to come up with all of these reasons not to just say what I want to, so that the person isn't offended, hurt, or angered.
I have put myself on the back burner for far too long now and that's stopping effectively immediately!! I am growing so much with each day in YOU U, with every call I am on, and importantly with each new tool I learn and use!! Combine all of that with the journaling and all of the support and connection between all of us and WOW!! LOVING IT !!!!!!!!
I learned this letter writing trick from my parents, mainly my dad. You knew something was up when you got a letter from dad! My dad would give us the silent treatment when he was mad at us and then usually follow it up with a letter. His letters most times, left you feeling pretty crappy!
I can admit that even back then, I always felt better writing a letter and getting the issue off my chest. Even if I didn't give it to the person, I still felt better just writing it. I rationalized it like this, by writing a letter I could make sure to say everything that I wanted to. I would normally forget things if I just tried talking with the person and then left the conversation feeling more upset, that I didn't say all that I wanted too. I also felt that by writing the person a letter they could take the time to read it and process what I had said to them and then we could perhaps talk things over.
I definitely had the right idea, I was just lacking the correct format to use for positive results!! I really love the "Love Letter" technique!
I am thinking about perhaps, first using the "Love Letter" technique prior to talking with the person I am upset with. If I do that first, I feel that I will have gotten a start on feeling better and will be in a better position to discuss the problem without getting real upset and/or heated. I don't mean that I will give the letter to them but, just write it and get it out & off my chest first before approaching them.
I am definitely to the point in my journey, that I am ready to take the necessary steps needed for myself. I am no longer trying to come up with all of these reasons not to just say what I want to, so that the person isn't offended, hurt, or angered.
I have put myself on the back burner for far too long now and that's stopping effectively immediately!! I am growing so much with each day in YOU U, with every call I am on, and importantly with each new tool I learn and use!! Combine all of that with the journaling and all of the support and connection between all of us and WOW!! LOVING IT !!!!!!!!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
POINTERS, TIPS & ADVICE for YOU University Students
Once again, it's been awhile since my last entry. I went to bed the other night, only to be bombarded with some information that I felt compelled to get up & write down! I realized it would be great information to share with future YOU University students.
YOU University has been & is such a wonderful, life changing program for me. As I work my way through each building and experience healing, growth, and learning; I have come across some things to share.
I decided to share these tips to help those, who will be embarking upon their journey through the program. I do so to be of help, to share some of what I experienced in hopes of helping to make your journey easier for you.
The following is what I've learned in YOU University:
That information was found in a book I have had and read most of. None of which truly resonated with me until now!!!
I am sure to come across more but, for now that's what I have.
I hope this information helps my future fellow YOU U students.
YOU University has been & is such a wonderful, life changing program for me. As I work my way through each building and experience healing, growth, and learning; I have come across some things to share.
I decided to share these tips to help those, who will be embarking upon their journey through the program. I do so to be of help, to share some of what I experienced in hopes of helping to make your journey easier for you.
The following is what I've learned in YOU University:
- I realized it takes complete focus & consistency throughout.
- Very important, Do Not
- I learned that I needed to totally commit to myself to give 100% all of the time & to stick with it, through facing my emotionally charged issues.
- compare yourself and where you are at in the program to your fellow students. Just work at your own pace & trust that you are right where you need to be!
- A crucial component is complete honesty, you must remain completely open & honest with yourself. If your not, the only one your hurting is yourself!!
- Something I discovered during a very tough time in my journey, that helped me big time! It said that experiencing 1 or more of the following manifestations IS PROOF that your self-mastery process is working:
- An increase in old, dysfunctional behaviors.
- Distinguishable amounts of yelling, crying, talking, excessive activity, physical ailments, or illness.
- Feelings of depression, anxiety, numbness, dissociation, being "Zoned-Out".
- An increase in compulsive behaviors such as alcohol, drugs, sex, food, TV watching.
- Feelings of confusion, uneasiness.
- Feelings of anger, hatred, or resentment.
- Justifications and rationalizations.
That information was found in a book I have had and read most of. None of which truly resonated with me until now!!!
I am sure to come across more but, for now that's what I have.
I hope this information helps my future fellow YOU U students.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Testimonial of Appreciation for YOU University
I am working through YOU University & I really cannot say enough great things about this program, seriously!! The results to date that I have experienced can be noticed not only by myself & the others who are going through the program as well but, my family & friends too.
I found this program by accident or so I thought? I have met the most wonderful people who are so supportive, caring, & all around a great group! I have gained wonderful new friends that are all over the world. California, Oregon, United Kingdom, Australia, and the group continues to grow daily.
Sure, there are a lot of Life Coach training programs out there. But, this one is the most comprehensive one I have come across. You get a great curriculum, add the support of weekly group calls and peer coaching calls then add time on Google Wave & there is pretty much not a time when you cannot get the support you may need or want! Friendships quickly develop & I love having like minded people that get me & what I am trying to do.
The curriculum is done online at your own pace & it's powerful stuff! I love that the exact material that I will take my clients through is the very material I have completed myself! The tools & techniques I will teach clients, I learned & will use for the rest of my life too.
You don't buy into a program, do the work alone & then send for a certificate of completion. You are never alone & you will earn your certificate but, you will be a better much happier person in doing so!! That's not a promise, it's a fact! If you do the work, participate in the calls & other activities & you are completely honest with yourself when you do the work & give 100% throughout the entire process you learn so much & you reap such priceless rewards.
Monday, April 18, 2011
WHAT DO YOU WANT YOUR LIFE TO BE ABOUT?
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Tuesday, March 29, 2011
"YOU UNIVERSITY TESTIMONIAL"
Time to share another testimonial as to You University and what it has done for me.
I was blessed to experience a very deep and profound healing through You University. I received a phone call from a friend who wanted to tell me about a call she received from a relative of mine.
This relative is an Aunt, my dads sister and my godmother as well. We have a rocky history, filled with many attempts from her to cause total chaos and pain in my life. I have forgiven her several times only to be on the receiving end of her attacks against me time and time again.
I have never understood why she does this or what I did to make her hate me and want to see my life in shambles. This is no exaggeration, as she told me point blank while looking directly at me with hatred in her eyes that she will make it her life's mission to F$#@ my life up! To make matters worse my dad chose to defend her for many years and believe the nasty lies she told him.
To get back to the phone call, I was informed by my friend of her demand that I be evicted from my home so her brother who is moving back to Michigan could live here. She failed in her attempt despite bashing me and spreading more lies to my landlord and friend.
This is where I get excited to share with you the amazing healing and growth I have and am experiencing through You University. In the past, this phone call would've sent me into a downward emotional spiral. I would have been very angry, hurt and upset and it would've lasted for days and sometimes weeks!
Not this time, I realized upon hanging up that by getting upset and reacting the way I normally did, I was giving her power over me!! I felt nothing, I was able to let it go with no problems. I vowed to myself to never allow her to affect me in anyway again. I felt a strong and profound sense of empowerment and awareness. This alone speaks volumes for the healing and growth taking place on this Journey through You University.
I cannot say enough about this training program, this program allows you to rid yourself of any and all emotional garbage from your past or present. It helps you to get back to the real you, your true self-that person you have always been but lost along the way! You go through this program and learn tools and techniques that you will use for the rest of your life, ones that truly help and really work towards dealing with situations you are stuck in, don't want to be in, etc... I haven't even touched on the people, the support I have been given, the true friendships I have developed, just all around awesome people who can relate to me, understand my situations and life experience's, as I have said before they get me!
What's more, I firmly believe to be an effective Life Coach you need to have gone through the training, utilize the tools and techniques that you will be using with your clients and continue to do so. That's what makes You University stand out above the other Life Coach programs I researched. It is very thorough and you actually feel and see the results starting with yourself first!!
I was blessed to experience a very deep and profound healing through You University. I received a phone call from a friend who wanted to tell me about a call she received from a relative of mine.
This relative is an Aunt, my dads sister and my godmother as well. We have a rocky history, filled with many attempts from her to cause total chaos and pain in my life. I have forgiven her several times only to be on the receiving end of her attacks against me time and time again.
I have never understood why she does this or what I did to make her hate me and want to see my life in shambles. This is no exaggeration, as she told me point blank while looking directly at me with hatred in her eyes that she will make it her life's mission to F$#@ my life up! To make matters worse my dad chose to defend her for many years and believe the nasty lies she told him.
To get back to the phone call, I was informed by my friend of her demand that I be evicted from my home so her brother who is moving back to Michigan could live here. She failed in her attempt despite bashing me and spreading more lies to my landlord and friend.
This is where I get excited to share with you the amazing healing and growth I have and am experiencing through You University. In the past, this phone call would've sent me into a downward emotional spiral. I would have been very angry, hurt and upset and it would've lasted for days and sometimes weeks!
Not this time, I realized upon hanging up that by getting upset and reacting the way I normally did, I was giving her power over me!! I felt nothing, I was able to let it go with no problems. I vowed to myself to never allow her to affect me in anyway again. I felt a strong and profound sense of empowerment and awareness. This alone speaks volumes for the healing and growth taking place on this Journey through You University.
I cannot say enough about this training program, this program allows you to rid yourself of any and all emotional garbage from your past or present. It helps you to get back to the real you, your true self-that person you have always been but lost along the way! You go through this program and learn tools and techniques that you will use for the rest of your life, ones that truly help and really work towards dealing with situations you are stuck in, don't want to be in, etc... I haven't even touched on the people, the support I have been given, the true friendships I have developed, just all around awesome people who can relate to me, understand my situations and life experience's, as I have said before they get me!
What's more, I firmly believe to be an effective Life Coach you need to have gone through the training, utilize the tools and techniques that you will be using with your clients and continue to do so. That's what makes You University stand out above the other Life Coach programs I researched. It is very thorough and you actually feel and see the results starting with yourself first!!
Sunday, March 27, 2011
"REALIZATIONS AND AHA'S"
I continue to learn so much about myself through You University and I love it! I get to a point where I think I am stuck or blocked and then I am hit with a new realization and/or aha moment. The current assignment I am working on is a prime example. It's a simple assignment involving making a list of the top 10 people I look up to and their values that I admire.
This should've been a breeze, no problem-wrong! I kept getting stuck and frustrated and couldn't understand why! It wasn't until I realized that I had spent so many years avoiding my feelings and emotions and remaining numb, that that's where the problem was.
I am still getting back into the mode of feeling and expressing my emotions and feelings. It's very difficult for me to verbalize how I feel. I struggle to pinpoint what I am feeling.
I spent so many years in a victim mentality, using avoidance tactics to cope that indeed I am working hard to be able to get in touch fully with my feelings/emotions.
I love that I was able to see what the problem was for me and work on it! I honestly would've not recognized this prior to beginning this journey through You University. I simply would've walked away and not even dealt with or tried to figure it out.
Yet, another testimonial to the awesomeness that is YOU UNIVERSITY!!!!
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
MY JOURNEY CONTINUES TO UNFOLD
It's been some time since my last update, and very much time for a new one! I am hard at work on my journey through You University and absolutely loving the experience. I have experienced so much growth, healing, and learning up to this point, it is truly life changing!! I have come up against resistance in completing assignments and facing certain emotional issues from the past. However, I was able to recognize immediately and work through the resistance which speaks volume's to my personal growth. In the past, I would've normally shut down at the first sign of resistance and walked away. It was my way of not dealing with any of the emotional stuff.
The bond between myself and the other student's has grown by leaps and bounds and friendships have bloomed. I am grateful for the strong support system available to me and I know that they get me, they understand where I am coming from and are genuine in their efforts to help me through whatever I may be experiencing at any given time. This alone has been an invaluable part of my journey.
I must say, I always thought that by not concentrating on my past that I was okay. I couldn't have been further from the truth. The past and all of it's unresolved emotional garbage has been a toxic venom brewing inside of me for years and it has affected me in more ways then I even know! The release I feel as I face each unresolved issue is enormous, I actually can feel it on a physical level! Of course, on an emotional and mental level as well.
My awareness continues to expand, as does my intuitiveness and I am working on listening to my intuition more. Overall, it has been an emotionally charged journey, difficult at times, but, absolutely rewarding, healing, and so worth it!! My determination and commitment has grown ever stronger, with each new experience.
The bond between myself and the other student's has grown by leaps and bounds and friendships have bloomed. I am grateful for the strong support system available to me and I know that they get me, they understand where I am coming from and are genuine in their efforts to help me through whatever I may be experiencing at any given time. This alone has been an invaluable part of my journey.
I must say, I always thought that by not concentrating on my past that I was okay. I couldn't have been further from the truth. The past and all of it's unresolved emotional garbage has been a toxic venom brewing inside of me for years and it has affected me in more ways then I even know! The release I feel as I face each unresolved issue is enormous, I actually can feel it on a physical level! Of course, on an emotional and mental level as well.
My awareness continues to expand, as does my intuitiveness and I am working on listening to my intuition more. Overall, it has been an emotionally charged journey, difficult at times, but, absolutely rewarding, healing, and so worth it!! My determination and commitment has grown ever stronger, with each new experience.
Monday, February 14, 2011
THE JOURNEY CONTINUES
 | | Thende04 | pop I have just finished an assignment that has left me mentally exhausted! I re-visited my past, during the period of 29yrs. thru 35yrs. of age. I realized that 15yrs. thru 21yrs. of age, was the worst period of my life growing up but, 29yrs. thru 35yrs. old, was the most traumatic time in my life!! It fully explains my resistance to completing the assignment. At first, I thought after completing the 15-21yrs. old assignment the rest would be a breeze. I didn't understand why I was dragging my a@$ in completing this one and now I know why! I won't make the same mistake I made previously, I will not hold back any tears that wish to flow and flow they will. I am more determined to push ahead and dedicate myself to my You University work. I absolutely want to break free from the past and heal. Each completed assignment brings me closer to the life I want to live instead of the prison my past has locked me in. As I look at the Teri of that time in my past, I ache for her and send her my love, she is gone but not forgotten. I am grateful for You University and the wonderful opportunity to make my dream of being a Life Coach and helping others who may be where I once was come true. To heal my past, and discover the authentic me, the person I have always been, am meant to be, but couldn't see is what really, really matters to me at this point in my life. I joyously release the past and I am at peace!!!! |
Sunday, February 6, 2011
RESISTANCE AND REALIZATIONS
I am working to overcome great resistance in completing building #2 still!! I have made a promise to complete it by Sunday Feb. 2nd, 2011 - today!!! I realize that I am in a fight with my ego who is scared and simply trying to protect me. Change is always scary for the Ego. I also know that once I push through this resistance and just complete the assignment, I will feel so much better. I will also move forward in the healing process and that is the main idea of this journey home to myself. I must say if it were not for my Wise Fairy Godmother, Maia Berens and the support of my classmates and everyone else involved with You University I would be lost!!
I realize that looking at my past and the not so pleasant experiences I endured is difficult. I know that in order to make progress and continue healing I must do this. I am so grateful for the awareness that I am gaining and my ability to instantly recognize when I am resisting, that I have gained since starting my journey through You University. I definitely look forward to graduating, looking back and smiling with pride of my accomplishments and for healing that which binds me now. More importantly, is the excitement I have in knowing I will be helping others on their journey upon my graduation. If I can take my life experiences and use them to help others and show them how to heal themselves, that is living my life with purpose.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
MY EXPERIENCE WITH BUILDING # 2
I officially began my journey through You University on November 23rd, 2010.The way it works is, you work in different buildings and as you complete all the assignments in one building you move to the next and so on. While there is no time limit for completing these buildings, Maia does provide us with a suggested guideline we can follow.
As of right now, I am in Building # 2 and ideally should have completed it by the second week in January. I have experienced massive resistance with this building and it was very difficult to get started. I pushed through the resistance and finally got started on the assignments, which are broke down according to age groups in this building.
I was making good progress through the assignments that is, until I came to the 15yrs. through 21yrs. age group. Right before I started it, I had a huge blow out with my daughter's over what they bought at the grocery store? As I began the writing assignment, I started to become very restless and agitated. Upon completing it, my emotions were all over the place and all I wanted to do was cry! However, I held back the tears not wanting to explain why I was upset to anyone.
When I got up the next morning, I was extremely sick and though I tried to lay back down and get some more rest it did not help. I felt even worse then before, I had chills, body aches & pains the whole nine. In other words, I had the flu! It was crazy how sudden and out of nowhere it came on. Thank goodness for comfy pj's and nyquil!!
I had to ask, if by holding back my emotions, was that what caused me to become sick? I asked and did some research, the results were surprising to me! People can actually make themselves sick by stuffing their feelings and not processing their emotions. I was told it can actually lower your immune system. Was that what happened in my case? I cannot say for sure. Based on my memories from that time in my life and the affect they had/have on me, chances are really very good that by holding back and not just having a good cry I did make myself sick!!
I really have to say, that this program is pretty damn powerful! The emotional work is not easy at all, I will just put that out there. However, the healing I am experiencing from my toxic past is definitely worth being uncomfortable!!
As for the toxic memories of my past they took me back in time! I could feel the teenager in me, that was deeply & repeatedly hurt by the people she loved the most, her parents. I just wanted to hug her, tell her that I loved her and that it would all be okay. It angered me, to realize how much this affected me, my life and how much so!
Until I completed that assignment and put it all out there, it just festered inside me! Seeping out in the form of toxic relationships, low self-esteem and my fear of becoming successful. It's hard for me to really explain, how it felt to tell my story. For me to put my secrets out there and be able to rid myself of all that garbage I held inside, for all those years.... was huge!! I felt this sense of relief, as if a ton of weight had been lifted off my shoulders! What's more I am okay with it now, in the sense that it's no longer my shameful secret, I told my story, it happened, it hurt me deeply and on so many levels but, I am a strong and I'm a survivor. It was as if, I had taken back my power!
As of right now, I am in Building # 2 and ideally should have completed it by the second week in January. I have experienced massive resistance with this building and it was very difficult to get started. I pushed through the resistance and finally got started on the assignments, which are broke down according to age groups in this building.
I was making good progress through the assignments that is, until I came to the 15yrs. through 21yrs. age group. Right before I started it, I had a huge blow out with my daughter's over what they bought at the grocery store? As I began the writing assignment, I started to become very restless and agitated. Upon completing it, my emotions were all over the place and all I wanted to do was cry! However, I held back the tears not wanting to explain why I was upset to anyone.
When I got up the next morning, I was extremely sick and though I tried to lay back down and get some more rest it did not help. I felt even worse then before, I had chills, body aches & pains the whole nine. In other words, I had the flu! It was crazy how sudden and out of nowhere it came on. Thank goodness for comfy pj's and nyquil!!
I had to ask, if by holding back my emotions, was that what caused me to become sick? I asked and did some research, the results were surprising to me! People can actually make themselves sick by stuffing their feelings and not processing their emotions. I was told it can actually lower your immune system. Was that what happened in my case? I cannot say for sure. Based on my memories from that time in my life and the affect they had/have on me, chances are really very good that by holding back and not just having a good cry I did make myself sick!!
I really have to say, that this program is pretty damn powerful! The emotional work is not easy at all, I will just put that out there. However, the healing I am experiencing from my toxic past is definitely worth being uncomfortable!!
As for the toxic memories of my past they took me back in time! I could feel the teenager in me, that was deeply & repeatedly hurt by the people she loved the most, her parents. I just wanted to hug her, tell her that I loved her and that it would all be okay. It angered me, to realize how much this affected me, my life and how much so!
Until I completed that assignment and put it all out there, it just festered inside me! Seeping out in the form of toxic relationships, low self-esteem and my fear of becoming successful. It's hard for me to really explain, how it felt to tell my story. For me to put my secrets out there and be able to rid myself of all that garbage I held inside, for all those years.... was huge!! I felt this sense of relief, as if a ton of weight had been lifted off my shoulders! What's more I am okay with it now, in the sense that it's no longer my shameful secret, I told my story, it happened, it hurt me deeply and on so many levels but, I am a strong and I'm a survivor. It was as if, I had taken back my power!
Friday, January 21, 2011
Update on my Journey Home
I posted my first blog entry to show how I found Maia and You University. That was written in the very beginning of my journey. I am now approximately 2 maybe 2 1/2 months into it now. I cannot begin to tell you how happy & grateful I am for the discovery of this program!!
I have basically been a dabbler for a few years, up until 2008 that is. I started to become serious then, about the fact that I wanted to heal and move forward in my life. I knew inside that there was more to life then what I was living and I wanted to find it! I made the decision that I wanted to pursue a Life Coach career. I enjoy helping people and I have always wanted to own a business and be my own boss.
I started researching Life Coaching and what type's of programs were out there. I discovered one, out of the sea of programs available that stood out to me. It was a Holistic Spiritual Life Coach certification program. The material truly resonated with me and I signed up. I was excited and started reading the manual, listening to the CD's and even had a coaching session with the Creator of the program. However, as I delved deeper into the training, I came to the part where the emotional work started. Needless to say that was the end of that.
I started my pursuit for change and growth back up in 2010. As I wrote in my previous post, I found Journaling for You Community which led to You University. I look at the previous books I read and programs I signed up for as prior teachers. While every training, program and/or guru claims their material, their methods or products are the best. I realize that what works for one person doesn't necessarily work for the next. You University is the one that works for me!
I have learned and utilized the tool's Maia has/is teaching us and I have actually experienced growth. I mean, I actually felt & feel it, both emotionally & physically. People have noticed a change in my appearance and my demeanor. I am more calm and feel more peaceful, I am eager to move forward and experience continued growth & transformation. While I have experienced huge resistance, I have and will continue to push through it. This is how I know I am truly, truly ready for my journey home to myself. It is also, how I know that this is the program for me!!
I have basically been a dabbler for a few years, up until 2008 that is. I started to become serious then, about the fact that I wanted to heal and move forward in my life. I knew inside that there was more to life then what I was living and I wanted to find it! I made the decision that I wanted to pursue a Life Coach career. I enjoy helping people and I have always wanted to own a business and be my own boss.
I started researching Life Coaching and what type's of programs were out there. I discovered one, out of the sea of programs available that stood out to me. It was a Holistic Spiritual Life Coach certification program. The material truly resonated with me and I signed up. I was excited and started reading the manual, listening to the CD's and even had a coaching session with the Creator of the program. However, as I delved deeper into the training, I came to the part where the emotional work started. Needless to say that was the end of that.
I started my pursuit for change and growth back up in 2010. As I wrote in my previous post, I found Journaling for You Community which led to You University. I look at the previous books I read and programs I signed up for as prior teachers. While every training, program and/or guru claims their material, their methods or products are the best. I realize that what works for one person doesn't necessarily work for the next. You University is the one that works for me!
I have learned and utilized the tool's Maia has/is teaching us and I have actually experienced growth. I mean, I actually felt & feel it, both emotionally & physically. People have noticed a change in my appearance and my demeanor. I am more calm and feel more peaceful, I am eager to move forward and experience continued growth & transformation. While I have experienced huge resistance, I have and will continue to push through it. This is how I know I am truly, truly ready for my journey home to myself. It is also, how I know that this is the program for me!!
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
How I found You University and began the journey home.
I am finally on the right path and it feels so right!!! I have been in the role of victim for so long, repeating the same old patterns and knowing what the outcome would be. I spent many hours beating myself up over it and finally, I found the tools and the support to move forward and peel away the layers to expose my true Authentic self - The Real Me.
I made a decision to become a Life Coach and started doing research on the various trainings out there. I quickly became discouraged at how many were out there and how much they cost and all the different programs available. I was surfing on the net one day and came across a free online journaling site. I enjoy journaling but never kept up with it much. However, I am online daily checking my mail and working so I thought it would work well. Needless to say I signed up, created my profile and explored the site for awhile.
What I found was a fantastic community of positive, supportive, and knowledgeable people. I have made some new and very special friendships that I know will last for a long time to come. The journaling has been so helpful in dealing with the emotions I am experiencing through this personal transformation. You can make your journals public or private, you can view other peoples journals and so much more.
Anyways, I guess I was just so surprised at the sincerity of these wonderful people, usually you sign up for some freebie only to become bombarded by daily e-mails to buy some product or service! Not there, I actually did not know they offered anything other than the journal until I was exploring the site and found some programs that they offer along with some other services. Which by the way, turned out to be of all things a Life Coach training program!! Talk about being guided to the right place exactly where I am supposed to be right now. I just thought this was such an awesome Body, Mind, & Spirit experience that I had to share it!!! Anyone else have a similar experience to share?
I made a decision to become a Life Coach and started doing research on the various trainings out there. I quickly became discouraged at how many were out there and how much they cost and all the different programs available. I was surfing on the net one day and came across a free online journaling site. I enjoy journaling but never kept up with it much. However, I am online daily checking my mail and working so I thought it would work well. Needless to say I signed up, created my profile and explored the site for awhile.
What I found was a fantastic community of positive, supportive, and knowledgeable people. I have made some new and very special friendships that I know will last for a long time to come. The journaling has been so helpful in dealing with the emotions I am experiencing through this personal transformation. You can make your journals public or private, you can view other peoples journals and so much more.
Anyways, I guess I was just so surprised at the sincerity of these wonderful people, usually you sign up for some freebie only to become bombarded by daily e-mails to buy some product or service! Not there, I actually did not know they offered anything other than the journal until I was exploring the site and found some programs that they offer along with some other services. Which by the way, turned out to be of all things a Life Coach training program!! Talk about being guided to the right place exactly where I am supposed to be right now. I just thought this was such an awesome Body, Mind, & Spirit experience that I had to share it!!! Anyone else have a similar experience to share?
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