THE JOURNEY CONTINUES

Thende04 | pop  I have just finished an assignment that has left me mentally exhausted! I re-visited my past, during the period of 29yrs. thru 35yrs. of age. I realized that 15yrs. thru 21yrs. of age, was the worst period of my life growing up but, 29yrs. thru 35yrs. old, was the most traumatic time in my life!! It more... Thende04 | pop  I have just finished an assignment that has left me mentally exhausted! I re-visited my past, during the period of 29yrs. thru 35yrs. of age. I realized that 15yrs. thru 21yrs. of age, was the worst period of my life growing up but, 29yrs. thru 35yrs. old, was the most traumatic time in my life!! It fully explains my resistance to completing the assignment. At first, I thought after completing the 15-21yrs. old assignment the rest would be a breeze. I didn't understand why I was dragging my a@$ in completing this one and now I know why! I won't make the same mistake I made previously, I will not hold back any tears that wish to flow and flow they will. I am more determined to push ahead and dedicate myself to my You University work. I absolutely want to break free from the past and heal. Each completed assignment brings me closer to the life I want to live instead of the prison my past has locked me in. As I look at the Teri of that time in my past, I ache for her and send her my love, she is gone but not forgotten. I am grateful for You University and the wonderful opportunity to make my dream of being a Life Coach and helping others who may be where I once was come true. To heal my past, and discover the authentic me, the person I have always been, am meant to be, but couldn't see is what really, really matters to me at this point in my life. I joyously release the past and I am at peace!!!!

RESISTANCE AND REALIZATIONS

I am working to overcome great resistance in completing building #2 still!! I have made a promise to complete it by Sunday Feb. 2nd, 2011 - today!!! I realize that I am in a fight with my ego who is scared and simply trying to protect me. Change is always scary for the Ego. I also know that once I push through this resistance and just complete the assignment, I will feel so much better. I will also move forward in the healing process and that is the main idea of this journey home to myself. I must say if it were not for my Wise Fairy Godmother, Maia Berens and the support of my classmates and everyone else involved with You University I would be lost!!

I realize that looking at my past and the not so pleasant experiences I endured is difficult. I know that in order to make progress and continue healing I must do this. I am so grateful for the awareness that I am gaining and my ability to instantly recognize when I am resisting, that I have gained since starting my journey through You University. I definitely look forward to graduating, looking back and smiling with pride of my accomplishments and for healing that which binds me now. More importantly, is the excitement I have in knowing I will be helping others on their journey upon my graduation. If I can take my life experiences and use them to help others and show them how to heal themselves, that is living my life with purpose.